Tuesday, March 24, 2009

Church Adventures: A Report from the Field

Oh boy, what a weekend I had! I visited three very different (but all very wonderful!) church services over two days, and I learned a lot. Mostly I think I learned that I want to keep up this experiment.

On Saturday morning my dad and I went to a place called Seed of Abraham, a Messianic Jewish congregation meeting in a church in St. Louis Park. My dad had been there twice before, visiting with Nate and the youth group from Open Door, I think. Here's how Seed of Abraham describes itself on it's website...

We are a One New Man congregation comprised of Jews and Gentiles who have been given new life by the God of Abraham, Isaac and Jacob through His Messiah, Yeshua - the Promised One.
Yep, this is a church of Christian Jews-- people of Jewish heritage who believe that Jesus (or Yeshua) is the Messiah.

This was one of the more bizarre experiences of my weekend. To me, it felt like a combination of a Jewish and a Pentacostalist service. We got to the church an hour after the service started. Apparently this is normal-- the service did last a good three hours! We were welcomed warmly at the door, handed a veritible tome of pamphlets about Messianic Judaism, and ushered into the sanctuary, where a couple of people were leading a song I knew from my experience at contemporary evangelical churches. People were waving colorful flags and dancing in the aisles. Up front there were two men waving a large colorful peice of fabric up and down, and people were dancing under it. A small group was dancing in unison in a circle beside them in a way that looked familiarly Jewish to me. Some of the worship songs were sung in both English and Hebrew translations. One woman stood up and read a rather lengthy word from God she had recieved during the service. Shouts of Hallelujah! and Amen! were not unfrequent. Once a woman started blowing a shofar (a ram's horn used in Jewish worship) during a praise song. There was no sermon, but a special musical guest-- a singer-songwriter who sang very personal songs about her experience with God and Yeshua. The songs were entertwined with VERY dramatic readings of several psalms by another woman, who looked ready to burst into tears at any moment. The atmosphere was emotionally laden throughout, alternating between jubilance and brokenness.

Although I saw many women participating fully and even leading worship, I was a bit surprised and dissapointed that the language used in prayer, in worship, and in the pamphlets made no real attempt at egalitarianism. Humankind was 'man' and God was almost universally a 'He'. The theology seemed to be a mixture of Jewish and evangelical, with a focus on the power of God and the importance of individual salvation.

On Sunday morning I went with Brendan (my boyfriend, if you hadn't heard) to a little Unitarian Universalist congregation by his house called Pilgrim House. This places tagline was "We ask all alike to think —not all to think alike.

The congregation met in a former one-room school house and can't have been bigger than 40 people. At the beginning of the service they asked any visiters to stand so that they could welcome us-- we were the only ones. There was no cross or explicit religious insignia anywhere, but there was a candle in a chalice at the front and on several flags, posters and the bulliten. There was a rainbow flag at the front of the meeting area, and the fact that the congregation was "LGBT Welcoming" was the first thing listed in a pamphlet we recieved. Right away it was made clear that the group was lay-led-- they had no hired clergy-person or pastor. The person leading the service on Sunday was a Unitarian Universalist seminarian, and apparently each week another community member or invited guest led the service.

The service started with the of the lighting of the chalice, a time for group announcements from anyone in the congregation, (during which we sang happy birthday three times!) a time for members to light candles in order to bring their own joys and concerns in front of the community and the singing of a hymn about the gathering of community. The sermon, conveniently, explained a lot about what Unitarian Universalism means in terms of a favorite UU hymn, "Spirit of Life." To a Unitarian Universalist, according to this sermon, the Spirit of Life called out to in this hymn could be understood as God, or human potential, or the life-giving force of community or just about anything else. After the sermon, a mic was passed around the congregation and anyone who had a comment or a story or a critique related to the sermon (or sometimes not...) had a chance to speak. It was important to this congregation that they not be led by one person's opinions, but that each unique experience and belief be lifted up as valid.

After the service there was a time for coffee and treats during which at least half of the congregation came to talk to Brendan and I. Everyone was very very nice and incredibly welcoming. One man gave us a history of the UU movement, another the history of this specific congregation, and one woman gave us directions to a Buddhist temple we could visit sometime. Many people wanted to know how we came to visit Pilgrim House, and hoped that we were enjoying ourselves and wanted to know if we had any questions. Everyone wore nametags, although aside from us, everyone in the room seemed to already know eachother. The focus on service to the neighbor and the earth was evident-- a compost bin and a sign-up sheet for a food-shelf shift were prominently displayed.

I loved this community and felt very blessed to have visited. I thourougly enjoyed the open conversation between people of differing beliefs and the spirit of service togetherness that pervaded my experience at Pilgrim House. Nonetheless, something seemed lacking to me. The language, while open and accepting, lacked conviction. Every reference to God or prayer was mitigated-- "what I call God" or "a practice of conciousness that some of you might call prayer." While it felt good to be at a place where my questions were just as accepted as my answers, I missed the sense that anything could be actually true. Apparently some Unitarian Universalist congregations are more oriented towards Christianity-- perhaps I will have to visit one of those for another perspective.

Finally, on Sunday Night, I went (again with my dad) to visit the Community of St. Martin, an "ecumenical Christian worshipping community committed to peace with justice", as their website describes them. Everything about CSM had a very Camp Amnicon vibe, which got me very excited. I actually heard about St. Martin's through my friend Meg, a long-time Amniconer and a general all-around neat-o person.

CSM meets in the basement of Faith Mennonite Church in Minneapolis' Seward Neighborhood. We got there a bit late-- just in time for community prayer requests. This community was even smaller than the one at Pilgrim House, and all the better for it-- no more than 30 people, I'm sure. The service here consisted of a litany (a prayer read back and forth between two groups, basically) focused on mindfulness, a few songs a talk by one of the community members about her work as a nurse, and community prayer, popcorn style, during which anyone could pray aloud. The Bible readings were from an inclusive translation of the Bible (very exciting to me!) and the entire service was not only accepting of, but also affirmed all people. To me it felt just like a staff worship gathering at camp-- one of my absolute favorite things. I even recognized one of the songs! It turns out that CSM is pretty connected with Amnicon-- they send a trip every summer and a retreat in the winter.

After the service there was some social time, with juice and fresh bread and good conversation. We were all enjoying ourselves thoroughly when I saw something black fluttering down the hallway outside the room we were in-- a bat had gotten into the old church! It flew around and around the room, making us all duck and shriek and laugh, until my dad finally caught it in his coat and helped it outside. Always an adventure!

I left CSM feeling like I'd found something that really made sense to me-- a community that was rooted in faith, like Seed of Abraham and in service and togetherness, like Pilgrim House, all with a sense of openness and welcome. It felt good.

Although my three weekend experiences were across the board with regards to theology, they all had something in common-- an incredible sense of community. That is the biggest thing I'm taking away from the weekend-- to me, church has to mean 'togetherness'.




Saturday, March 14, 2009

The Church

Here's a question for you:

What does 'The Church' mean to you? What should the church do? Why does it exist?

Some of you might know that I'm giving some serious consideration to going to seminary sometime in the future, but before I make that decision I want to do some really serious consideration of what exactly this thing is.

I grew up with a couple of assumptions:
  • "The Church" is a building that you go to on Sunday mornings.
  • The job of the Church is to teach you Bible stories.
  • Church is where you learn what and how to think from a man standing in front of you.
I'm not sure where these rather shallow understandings of Church came from. My parents certainly never saw Church that way.

Here's a quick history of my experience with the Church-- it's rather convoluted, and hearing the story might do a bit to explain where I am on this.

I spent a good deal of my spiritual youth in transit. I was baptized in the Catholic church as an infant, and went to a Catholic school through 5th grade. My family went to a nice Catholic church-- the same one where my father grew up. We knew everyone, and everyone knew us. My parents were the well-loved youth leaders, and the congregation was full of young faces.

But Saint Austin's didn't have much for the younger kids, so my family hunted out another church. We started going to the Church of the Open Door when I was pretty young--before I can really remember, even--because they had a fun program for us kids and a lot to give spiritually to the adults. Open Door is very different from St. Austin's-- when we started going, we met in a high school. Later it was a community center. Now the church has it's own big building in Maple Grove. All along the congregation's been pretty huge--You can blend into the crowd really easily. On the plus side, the preaching is challenging and the worship is engaging.

Although Open Door was great for me growing up, I feel both lost and limited there now. There is very little sense of community, and although the theology of the church is personally challenging and socially conscious, the reality of life there is that it doesn't draw me into engagement with the broader world.

So I'm about to embark on an adventure of discovery in the Church. Whenever I have a free Sunday (not very often) I'm going to try out a service at another type of worship establishment (if you can think of someplace I should visit, let me know!). I want to get a feel for what's out there and figure out where I line up-- are there any denominational traditions that I feel really great about? If something rubs me the wrong way, why? Where do I fit in this thing called "The Church?"

Here's my preliminary thoughts on what I'd love "The Church" to be for me-- I'm expecting this to change as I learn and explore...

The Church should be a space where...
  • Everyone is known
  • Unique gifts are lifted up
  • I'm challenged
  • I'm held accountable
  • The community is open to new ideas
  • the community is supportive of its members
  • the experience of God is not limited
  • the community energizes its members for work in the world
  • special attention is paid to caring for creation
  • all are welcome, regardless of race, sex, sexual orientation, and creed
  • the spirit of God is present
So... what do you think the job of the church is? activism? faithfulness? teaching? to be a moral compass? a community? Why not just worship on our own?

Sunday, March 1, 2009

Happy Lent!

Happy Lent, everybody! I mean happy, too.

For those of you less familiar with Christian tradition (or those in different Christian traditions than my own!) Lent is the 40 days before Easter. It began this year last Wednesday-- called "ash Wednesday" because of the ritual of receiving a smudge of ash on the forehead with the words "from dust you come to dust you shall return."

When I was young (and Catholic, sort of) my family used to observe lenten practices like not eating meat on Fridays and making some sort of sacrifice (chocolate, tv, pop) for the entire 40 days. Lent was a somber time--bright colors, silly faces, and running around were generally thought to be out of place. I thought it was 40 days to just be really sad because Jesus had died. I'm not sure where this idea came from in my life--I don't think my parents taught me that joy was disallowed during Lent.

In any case, what my early experiences with the Lenten tradition gave me was mostly just a distaste for fishsticks and some guilty feelings when I enjoyed myself.

I'm starting to find other riches in Lent, though. Last year I gave up Facebook, which was a really marvelous experience. This year my goal is much more difficult to keep track of-- I'm trying to live more in the moment-- to let go of my planner and my to-do list and to enjoy life as it comes at me more.

Now instead of as a guilt-fest, I see Lent as a time to examine what it means to live as God's people in a world that doesn't recognize God. If I really believe that God is working to heal the world and bring us to Godself, how should we live our lives?

I'm sure that it is not by squandering our time on facebook or getting lost in our calenders. When we let go of some of these extra things it becomes easier to see our neighbors, our world, and ourselves, and to see God in those places. It's a time of discovery, a time of sharing, and a time of joy!

Sunday, February 15, 2009

Camp Amnicon is Recruiting!

Many of you know that I spent a very challenging, fulfilling, and life-changing summer guiding canoe trips at Camp Amnicon this last year, and that (lucky me!) I'm going back for another wonderful summer.

Amnicon is currently in the process of hiring a staff for this summer. If you or anyone you know would be interested in spending a few months showing kids the wonders of creation, this might be just the experience you're looking for! If you're at Gustavus, Amnicon representatives (and me, for part of the day!) will be here on Wednesday, February 25th. Please feel free to stop by, say hi, and hear a bit of what Amnicon is about (plus meet some of my favorite people...)

If you're not at Gustavus, check out the camp's website at Amnicon.org, watch this video, and feel free to ask me questions about the camp experience. I'd LOVE to talk about camp-- you probably won't get me to shut up!

Amnicon is also recruiting campers. If you know a group of young people, from church or anywhere else, that would benefit from a week in the wilderness, learning their strengths and building community... (ok, what group of kids would NOT benefit from this?)... check out the website or talk to me about the possibility of setting up a trip.

Let all around you be peace!
Bethany

Thursday, February 5, 2009

Housekeeping

Some menial blog housekeeping updates, which may or may not be useful to you:

  • I'm pretty sure that everyone can leave comments now, anonymously if you want to. Click on the "(X) comments" button at the bottom of a post.
  • You can now subscribe to posts (see the left hand side of the blog). I can set it up so that any new posts are automatically e-mailed to you. Let me know if you're interested.
  • I've put a list of a few favorite blogs over on the left hands side. I especially recommend Real Live Preacher for some good thinkin'.
  • As I've said before, I really am interested in what you think. Even if you disagree, I promise not to dismiss you or your beliefs. I'm thinking 'interactive blog' here. Please feel free to comment!

Criteria for Truth

Here's a question for the masses:

When it comes to 'big-deal' questions, how do you decide what is true? Do you have a set of criteria or a certain place to look for truth? Who do you trust?

I'm not asking in order to indict people who find truth differently than me, nor is this a rhetorical question. I'm genuinely curious how other people do this.

I'm reading a book now called "Surprised by Hope" by N.T. Wright (recommended and lent to me by my marvelous cousin Libby). The book is about death and what comes after from an orthodox, Biblical perspective. I'm only two chapters in-- partly because I'm slow, and partly because I've decided not to let the book pass me by. I really want to understand what's being said and what my responses are, so I'm only reading it when I really have time to think afterward.

So: I was thinking about chapter two, in which Wright lays out some of the many ways in which he says that modern people, Christian and non-, are confused about what really happens after death. It appears that his argument is for resurrecting the belief in resurrection, although I haven't gotten far enough yet to really know what that means.

What bothers me about his argument in this chapter is the implication that none of the various prevailing philosophies on the nature of death have much of anything constructive to offer, since they are rooted in something other than scripture and ancient Christian tradition. He is especially disdainful of those trends in belief that tend towards the incorporation of non-Christian systems of belief-- cremation seeming Buddhist or Hindu, for example. It seems that the argument that some propositions aren't Christian is enough to discredit them for him.

Alas, it is not enough for me.

So we come back to my original question. If Christian scripture and tradition are not my criteria for truth, then what is?

Well, I think I judge any proposition on three basic criteria:

  1. Whether or not a proposition makes logical sense in conjunction with other things that I know or believe. Of course, this is a limited criteria since I do believe in some things that, while perhaps not exactly illogical, can't be explained with mere logic.
  2. Whether or not a belief is ultimately life-giving. What does this belief do for reality? Does it mean physical or spiritual 'death' for myself or anyone else if I choose to believe this? Does this belief contribute to the betterment of this world? This too is a limited and subjective question, since what is 'good' is up to a lot of debate, but I think that, no matter what their concrete beliefs, most people will agree that something which makes a person more 'alive', either physically (food, health-care, etc.) mentally (good education) or spiritually (loving community, personal freedoms) is 'good'.
  3. This is perhaps the most important criteria for me: a proposition or belief must resonate with me. It has to make some kind of sense beyond the logical, it has to jive with my real experience, it has to in some sense feel true for me to believe it. I know that this is very subjective and impossible to pin down. It could even be argued that it is selfish or prideful to say that something is true or not true simply because I feel like it, but I don't think its unreasonable. Would anyone throw the force of their belief and energy behind a proposition that ultimately feels wrong or untrue? Certainly not! Don't ask me to try!
I recognize that this is a flawed system-- I believe that every human system of belief is flawed. I'm ok with my system being flawed. BUT I would like it to be the least flawed possible. So what do you think? How do you decide what you believe?

Perhaps we can help each other out on this question. Are you willing to dig around in it for a while with me?

Saturday, January 31, 2009

A Warm Day in January...

So I'm home for a week for this funky thing my school calls 'touring break', which mostly means that my friends are in Colorado playing instruments and I'm here.

BUT I'm seeing it all as a really lovely opportunity to do what I want to do. I'm reading some books, doing some cooking, spending time with my family and a few friends from home, and taking advantage of the fact that, for the most part, I don't HAVE to do anything!

So today I walked to the grocery store. My mom and I are making steamed brown bread, and it calls for rye flour, which we didn't have on hand. So I called ahead to make sure that Supervalu, the neighborhood little grocery store, had rye flour. They didn't. BUT the guy graciously got a bag out of the bakery for me, and said it'd be ready when I got there. So I started walking. It's beautiful outside-- above freezing for sure. I didn't need a hat or mittens or anything. Tons of people were out and about, taking down christmas lights, or walking here or there-- it was really fun to greet my neighbors, and enjoy the weather in a sort of community.

If its nice where you are, I dare you to go take a walk-- even if you don't have a good excuse.

now GET OFF THE COMPUTER!